what would have been

listening to :
Emergency by Paramore

Sitting in this place full of strangers
i am all alone
i feel like im nothing
but a simple drone
i cannot harbor this any longer
this pain i feel is so much stronger
than anything i can take
it hurts so much i fear i wont wake
after i take these pills their purpose to easy pain
i take advantage as my body goes numb
i cannot feel the hurt anymore
i cannot feel a thing
i finally start to think that this all will end
as these final pills kick in
my thoughts start to blend
i cannot do this anymore
my vision fades away
this life i live will end this way
without a second thought
to make sure i wont ever wake
i sink this blade deeper than before
searching for the end to pain
as i find the spot
to make sure i wont wake
i hear a scream inside myself
as i come to realize
this is not the way i want to go
paralyzed by pills i cannot move
my blood flows out through this crooked groove
all i want now is a chance to go back
id give anything for a second chance
i open my eyes as the paramedics say its too late
as i fall asleep i think about my fate ..