screaming in my mind , shattering my heart

listening to :
Catch Me When I Fall by Ashlee Simpson

Empty , i feel emptiness in me .


alone i sit and listen
to the sounds of emptiness
singing to me , the one with empty arms
and broken dreams


everything i ever wanted , seems
unreachable or taken by another
Is fate a cruel prankster , with an unfunny joke?


i wonder at times , if destiny
has deemed me to wander all alone
never knowing a lovers caress, or the passion in his eyes


at times the longing is maddening
the tears fall and melt into my pillow
the lonliness enveloping me once again
i curse my longing soul


i watch others and still can smile at their joy
but at times , the hurt is raw
a reminder of what i dont have
and maybe never will


No lovers laughter or knowing smiles
no cuddles in the break of day light
my words heard whispered in the darkness
only by my goddess and me


so many broken dreams , promises
all came to me times past but do nothing in the now
for now i am alone in my bed and life
with unanswered songs


never touching the realness
of a lovers face and hair
only staring at the space of nothing and feeling more alone then i ever believed i could


Never did i believe i would end up this way
to end each day hungering for the touch
of the one i love but he isnt here , the dark prince of my longings


Screaming in my mind , shattering my heart
like a broken glass, i am tired of bein all alone
i face alone the day in my bed , noctural angel all alone
in the void of emptiness that is my world